During our weekend event with Tim Christopher in London this Easter I was given a most beautiful, personal and experiential teaching about specialness.
Tim had been teaching about the chair. There were around 18 ordinary 1980s plastic moulded chairs in the room, grey ones with black metal legs, textured surface, and a rectangular hole at the place where your lower back sits. The one to his right was empty and had been used during this teaching to demonstrate the idea that any object can offer you the total recognition of yourself if you will let it; if you are open enough to release all ideas you hold of the reality of objective, self-existent form.
From lesson 29 (A Course in Miracles), ‘God is in everything I see’:
“The idea for today explains why you can see all purpose in everything. It explains why nothing is separate, by itself or in itself. And it explains why nothing you see means anything. In fact, it explains every idea we have used thus far, and all subsequent ones as well. Today’s idea is the whole basis for vision.
“…we emphasised yesterday that a table shared the purpose of the universe. And what shares the purpose of the universe shares the purpose of its Creator.
“Try then, today, to begin to learn how to look on all things with love, appreciation and open-mindedness. You do not see them now. Would you know what is in them? Nothing is as it appears to you. Its holy purpose stands beyond your little range. When vision has shown you the holiness that lights up the world, you will understand today’s idea perfectly. And you will not understand how you could ever have found it difficult.”
I left the room and re-entered it and stood for a while behind the empty moulded plastic chair. Energy was coursing through my body, and I remember opening my eyes for a moment and checking the back of the chair was close enough for me to reach out and hold onto it if I needed to. I continued to stand there with my eyes closed and enjoy the energetic effects of physical resurrection, and at one point – as a wave of energy moved through me and made me spasm forward – I reached out for support and held onto the back of the chair. In the moment that I reached out and used the chair for support, I suddenly experienced it as the whole universe of light that Tim was offering through his teaching, and that Jesus offers us in lesson 29, ‘God is in everything I see’.
The support it offered me was overwhelming. In that moment, through my experience of that chair, I received a perfect energetic transmission of wholeness. I knew that I could sit in it and it would hold me, not simply with the practical support of its structure, but with the penetrating but infinitely gentle arms of God Himself. The nourishment that was available to me through my connection with that chair in that moment was the fulfilling of every need and the release of every thought. It was literally given to me as an experience of totality, as an experience of perfect comfort, perfect care, perfect gentleness, perfect support… perfect love.
In that moment, in my full awareness, the chair shared the purpose of God. God gives wholly, truly and totally. God only loves. The purpose of God was extended to me through the form of the chair. I joined totally with it and received all the love of God that I was available to in that moment. The experience explained to me that “nothing is separate, by itself or of itself” because it was a perfect joining; it taught me that “nothing I see means anything” because the separate world of objective form that my body’s eyes see has nothing whatsoever to do with this experience of immense and immeasurable joy that I was being given! The vision of Christ, the vision of wholeness, was literally showing me “the holiness that lights up the world”, and I did indeed understand perfectly, experientially, that God was and is literally in that chair. And these lessons when they are real are always infinitely transferrable – if God is in the chair then he is in the coat hanger, magazine, finger, lamp, body, door, and waste basket that Jesus suggests as a possible list of items for use in this exercise (lesson 29). If God is in the chair, then God is indeed in everything. If God is in the chair then my entire thought system of objectivity is false. If God is in the chair then attack is impossible and suffering is untrue, because if the chair doesn’t exist separately from God, then neither do I. If the chair can teach me the truth about myself as infinitely extending all the love in the universe, then so can anything and everything I look upon and thus enter into a relationship with! Amen.
I began to laugh as I realised the clarity of the teaching I was being offered through this experience – there were 16 or so other chairs in the room that were literally identical! My special chair was distinguishable only through very careful observation of minor flaws! All the chairs were exactly the same as each other! But in that instant, that chair stood out for me, perfect in its quantum offering, resplendent in its benificence, glorious in my understanding of it as extending to me all the love that my Father made me as in His Creation.
I was shown simultaneously two opposite and paradoxical teachings, both of which are perfect and are true. The first – that specialness is an illusion. The idea that one form can offer me anything that another form cannot, is ridiculous, insane and untrue. And secondly, the recognition that I should use that light, wherever I see it, wherever it appears to come from, who or whatever it appears to come through. Focus not upon the form! Utilise the light of God. Let it be extended unto you and accept it wholly. But mistake not the chair for the teacher! The teacher is in your mind and is offering you everything, through everything, all the time.
From lesson 30, ‘God is in everything I see because God is in my mind’:
“Today we are trying to use a new kind of ‘projection’. We are not attempting to get rid of what we do not like by seeing it outside. Instead, we trying to see in the world what is in our minds, and what we want to recognise is there. Thus, we are trying to join with what we see, rather than keeping it apart from us. That is the fundamental difference between vision and the way you see.”
The vision of Christ is teaching you that you are indistinguishable from the other ‘chairs’, the other forms you see around you. It is teaching you that infinite care, nourishment and fulfillment are yours to give, through your recognition of what you are. It is teaching you that to give and to receive are one in truth, for when you receive that blessing for yourself, in the recognition that you are whole, you are receiving it for everyone.