A Mountain Falls

In the New Testament, in Matthew (verses 17-20), Jesus teaches: “truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain ‘move from here’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” During the Easter event with Tim Christopher I was given my own experience of this verse and I would like to share it here with you.

At these events, while Tim is teaching, you are given the opportunity to go deep within and receive on a cellular level the transmission of light that is being offered to you from your whole self. Jesus expresses this in lesson 92 of A Course in Miracles as  the place where “self meets Self”, and “light and strength unite”:

“Strength and light unite in you, and where they meet, your Self stands ready to embrace you as Its Own. Such is the meeting place we try today to find and rest in, for the peace of God is where your Self, His Son, is waiting now to meet Itself again, and be as one… Let yourself be brought unto your Self. Its strength will be the light in which the gift of sight is given you… We will practice seeing in the light, closing the body’s eyes and asking truth to show us how to find the meeting place of self and Self, where light and strength are one.”

The frequency of energy available through a mind that is in a continuous relinquishment of its separate self is the highest possible in this place of infinite density. A mind like this, that is joined with its Creator in an ongoing dedication to the truth of perfect union is the single most useful thing you can come across in your process of awakening! The catalyst that such a mind provides for you in your own advance to truth is infinite, or has the potential to be. Jesus’ assertion that “this course is not beyond immediate learning” (chapter 15, section 4 ACIM) suddenly becomes available to you in the presence of a whole mind that knows itself in the certainty God. Tim is such a mind, and this is why I am so grateful for the opportunity to attend and support these events. 

I became aware that I was being shown something – offered an experience of the teaching. I was given an image and a feeling at the same time and I responded by going deep into myself to receive the experience, and the teaching I was being given. I was near a cliff face, a precipice just beyond me leading to a  deep dark canyon of solid black stone. My physical identity was part of this rock face – a building, a structure carved out of the rock, protruding upwards from the edge. All of a sudden I became aware of a falling sensation, and I realised that half of the building – the part that I was experiencing as my body, was collapsing into the abyss, rushing downwards into the canyon below. I didn’t fall with the stone. My experience was one of a blissful falling sensation but with no fear, whilst staying exactly where I was. It was the density of me, the body identity, the mountain of suffering that was falling, not me. I tried to look down and see where it had gone but there was nothing below me, just emptiness. So I went back to falling and simply enjoyed the experience of moving the mountain. I experienced the mountain being moved through me. The mountainous immensity of all human pain and suffering, the solid rock of separate human identity, the petrified determination to hold onto a hated replica of true identity being released and removed, literally falling away, into an abyss of nothingness which I could not see into, follow or understand. 

bleak canyon

Jesus says in the review of lesson 3 of A Course in Miracles (lesson 51 contains this review) that there is no point in attempting to understand the world. The intensity of human suffering is not something that can be understood. The infinite density of thought that has appeared to make a world is not understandable because it is itself an error: “What I see is the projection of my own errors of thought. I do not understand it because it is not understandable. There is no sense in trying to understand it. But there is every reason to let it go, and make room for what can be seen and understood and loved. I can exchange what I see for this merely by being willing to do so. Is not this a better choice than the one I made before?”

The most fearful thing about the apparent process of enlightenment is that you are going to be entirely divested of your body identity, and this is so fearful to a human being only because of the severe investment in the idea that the body is the self. You literally think you are going to be divested of self entirely, that you are going to no longer exist. The beauty of the experience of truth is that, although you will be and are being divested entirely of the concept of a self – of ‘yourself’ as an idea – the Self you are being offered in return is so incomprehensibly beautiful and lovely, that the moment you allow yourself just a glimpse of it, you will surrender immediately to its glorious beauty and grace. You are being offered a ‘you’ that is real – that doesn’t know about the tedious cycles of life and death, of joy and sorrow, of hope and disappointment, of harmony and conflict that are so reasonable  to the mind of a human being. And the most beautiful part, that I was given as my Father moved the mountain through me, and that I want to give to you, is that you will still be there. You will be right here! You will be the one through which the entirety of the stagnation of space-time falls into nothingness, and you will not be able to understand where it’s gone and you will not care. You will simply return your mind to experiencing the joyful release that is occurring through you. You will be willing to make the exchange that Jesus is offering you, and you will know that it is indeed a better choice than the one you made before!

So let the mountains move! Through the miracle of light that is my Father’s Grace, I am being removed from the necessity to know or to understand. Everything I need know will be given me to know. And when understanding comes it is of a kind so far beyond the limited references of small self, it comes as a direct experiential teaching from the whole self which is God, and there is no room for doubt or for fear. The body identity with its incomprehensible inconsistencies and perplexities and infinitely insatiable needs is being released from my experience of self. And I am being given my place in the house of the Lord – the perfect trust that comes from perfect dependence – where I abide forever.


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