The passionate wakings of my heart desire to keep, to enfold every human being within its infinite well.
I have only love for you.
In your shock, in your devastation, in your silent unheard longing for a reason, any reason at all.
I am here for you.
I cannot understand a hardened mind but love can penetrate, creeping, and find the vulnerability of a separated soul. Lost and alone and in desperate need of release from its self-evident constriction.
Let me take you inside me. Inside my energetic structure, far beyond bodily or physical concerns. Let me take you into me. Penetrate my deepest longing to communicate with what I have held outside myself.
Let me let you inside.
Where we meet in gentle recognition of Self-hood conflict is forever loosened, the rusted grievance lubricated and released, nothing holds us together in solitude and anguish anymore.
To the deafening sound of glory’s presence, rising clouds of angels in my morning mediation with my holy Lord.
How warm the glow of waking heart – a sudden wave relieves me, a sudden wave of what is always there, just beyond the the limits of the thinking mind.
Such force, dynamic depths cascading ‘cross the open landscape of a gently, powerfully, expanding mind.
Such stillness in the cool sway of mental machinations, held aloft, suspended, nowhere available to land.
Good God! You are here! You awaken in me and take hold across the open spaces of the Greater Mind – You show me what I am! Beyond this place! Beyond this body of supreme limitation and infinite misery, beyond this twisted mind of I AM RIGHT AND YOU ARE WRONG! Beyond this fearful defence of a self that could never possibly exist in Your Infinite Reality.
Good God! Good God of Holy Glory. You become my dark defences; you enter into my wilfull resistance of Your Love; by my request, you enter into my insurmountable calamity, surpassing my intense desire to croak, to kill, to keep myself apart from what I need, and from what I am. You enter in. You become the chasm of my attempted defeat of You and You show me that it is nothing! That my childish ill humours and tantrums of such ferocity wax lyrical only in my own fantastic dream.
Thank you! Thank you Light! Thank you Peace! Thank you Joy! For becoming me.. For becoming my deepest Heart and my most glorious infinite Soul. Thank you Life! For filling me as you cannot not, exploding my corruptible boundaries with Your passionate infinite force!
I LOVE YOU LOVE! I love you – Heart of All Beautiful Hearts. I love you Clearest Purest Mind.
I love You Father, I love mySelf in Your perfect creation, in this eternal instant of incorruptible Soul.
I love You now, completely. I love You, now, in certainty. I love You, now, in gentle simplicity.
Thank You for becoming me.
Thank You for becoming me, for burgeoning in me, for investing Your riches within me, for Your erupting volcanic trove within my breast and within my apparent brain.
Come forth within me. Let me acknowledge only Your Self in me, Your creation, Your work, Your goodness and Your love. Let me only grow in faith in You within me. Let all things fall away but what You show Youself to be, and let my faith in That Which You Are be my strength, my necessity, my choice, my desire, and my Home.
Father, let me know You as You know me.
Let me feel You as you feel me.
Let me know mySelf as you created me.
In honest, grateful, wholly pure desire,
Let me learn to…
Listen!
To the deafening sound of glory’s presence, rising clouds of angels in my ongoing mediation with my holy Lord.
The universe is open to you. God is offering His Mind to you. He is sharing with you Everything that He Is. His glittering, shimmering frequency is all around you. It is in you – it IS you – it is what You Are with Him and in Him.
“God is with me. He is my Source of life, the life within, the air I breathe, the food by which I am sustained, the water which renews and cleanses me. He is my home, wherein I live and move; the Spirit Which directs my actions, offers me Its Thoughts, and guarantees my safety from all pain. He covers me with kindness and with care, and holds in love the Son He shines upon, who also shines on Him.” (Prayer lesson 222 ‘God is with me, I live and move in Him’)
I experience my Father’s presence as being in perfect communion with all the universe. There is an infinitely expansive heaven of stars twinkling above and around me and this is my mind, this is my Self. My identity, mental emotional and physical, is completely at one with this living, breathing, conscious heavenly Mind.
“My Self, Which rules the universe, is but Your Will in perfect union with my own, which can but offer glad assent to Yours, that it may be extended to Itself.” (Prayer lesson 253 ‘My Self is ruler of the universe’)
This all encompassing communication with Truth, teaches and reaches every corner of the universe. There is nothing that is outside of this experience. Therefore I do rule the universe. Not with the iron fist of control born from the pain of self-containment, but with a gentle all pervasive extension of absolute certainty; certainty of What I Am.
“You are entitled to miracles because of what you are. You will receive miracles because of what God is. And you will offer miracles because you are one with God. Again, how simple is salvation! It is merely a statement of your true Identity. It is this that we will celebrate today.” (Lesson 77 ‘I am entitled to miracles’)
This is A Course in Miracles. The miracle is the acceptance of the Love that is the Source of all miracles as yourSelf, as your Identity.
“Today we will claim the miracles which are your right, since they belong to you. You have been promised full release from the world you made. You have been assured that the Kingdom of God is within you, and can never be lost. We ask no more than what belongs to us in truth. Today, however, we will also make sure that we will not content ourselves with less.” (Lesson 77)
You are the Kingdom of Heaven. You are the Kingdom of God. It is not just within you, it IS you. It cannot be lost because you cannot be lost in the Mind of God. Your Creator knows you perfectly, as He created you.
Be not content with the littleness that is your pathetic earthly self and existence. Be aware of just how little that is, of just how little you are if you choose that as yourself. Be open to the experience that a human being is nothing and knows nothing, and you are opening yourself to an experience of what the Self is that is beyond that littleness, that basks and glides in the magnitude and glory of the Light of Truth.
Heaven is your inheritance and is your one and only possibility of joy. Nothing will satisfy you for long, nothing will last here, except the complete acceptance of your own Identity in God. Your acceptance of yourself as heavenly rather than earthly, as eternal rather than in time, as extending – continuously and simultaneously giving and receiving through this subtle communication with All Things, this experience of Being God, is the only thing you need strive for or focus on or value. If you do decide ‘first (for) the Kingdom of the Lord’ then ‘all things will be added unto you’. (Matthew 6:33) They won’t be given to you in your separate state to use for your own purposes, but will be added to You as the Kingdom of Heaven, which you know as what You Are. All that you have ever wanted or desired or dreamed of being your reality and making you happy will be presented to the Kingdom of Heaven for all who you identify with to share with you. Nothing will be given you alone, but everything will be given you for you to share will all the Sonship Who you know as yourSelf.
“Decide with me, who has decided to abide with you. I will as my Father wills, knowing His Will is constant and at peace forever with itself. You will be content with nothing but His Will. Accept no less, remembering that everything I learned is yours. What my Father loves I love as He does, and I can no more accept it as what it is not, than He can. And no more can you When you have learned to accept what you are, you will make no more gifts to offer to yourself, for you will know you are complete, in need of nothing and unable to accept anything for yourself. But you will gladly give, having received. The host of God needs not seek to find anything.” (Text 15:3:10)
“We thank you Father for the light that shines forever in us. And we honour it, because You share it with us. We are one, united in this light and one with You, at peace with all creation and ourselves.” (Prayer lesson 239 ‘The Glory of my Father is my own’)
Amen to this beautiful and flawless awakening. Amen to my Father’s promise of full release from the world I made, and my clarity and certainty that that has occurred in me.
Structures loosening
Spreading
Fibres separating
Finding space between strands
Quantum existence becoming tangible
Space being discovered in solid form
By the mind desperate to renew itself
And revelling, calm, in the quiet faith of certainty
Mind is form, form is mind
No space for separation
No space between forms, only within form itself
The space that encompasses, takes up, everything
Quantum experience reiterated
Repeated
Again and still again
Instants of wholeness
Perfectly formless recognition
Genuine beauty
Freedom
And bliss
Here I am Father!
Here I am Nature!
Here I am Holy Source!
Bequeath me of your glorious innocence of all form!
Surround, encompass and penetrate my being with your unearthly magnitude!
And let me know, cherish, remember, give, extend, your heavenly alms to all who delve within the images of my mind
You are mine forever
Here forever
Teasing, gently teasing apart the strands of the fabric of my listless reality
Come take me apart my saviour!
Come loosen the fibres of my woven seams
Come loosen the threads of my undeserving hostility
Come rectify the heavy chains I have dictated in my fiendish, presumptuous dreams
Come into me fully
My heavenly counsellor
Your true beauty is beyond compare
As you enter the fabric of my costume and begin to separate the woven fibres of my dense material being
You make space
For me
To see
You
