Deciding for the Light

Your gentle power wakes in me a joyful breed of constancy,

An unexpected ministry of Love itself, it’s blissful, free.

I love You in a childish way, with playful wonder, sweetness, faith,

Your constancy I can’t betray again, perfection starved by grief

Amongst the painful dreams of old that I invented and re-told

~     Every time I looked away from you, refusing to receive

the glory that your Mind bestows, the gentle generous fully whole

rememberance of Your gaiety, Your truly wonderful relief.

I love You from a woman’s heart, an adult desperate to depart

from grief that I had made myself believe and carry and behold

in every creature that I saw – my mind was twisted, tainted, scarred,

I chased myself away from love and saw outside what I denied within

and would not look upon, for fear of finding myself mad,

but when I looked at all that pain, all I discovered is that I

had been avoiding what was true, Your glorious light, the Truth in You

’twas witnessed to, cast back in me, reflected in such mystery,

such beauty and such gentle love that loosed me from the trembling of

a broken soul in infinite pain, relief from going against the grain.

Relieved to be within the flow of perfect power, gracefully sown.

Gracefully given, wholly saved for me in Mind that is my own.

My glorious wonderous Father dear, Who gently makes my vision clear,

Who gently rouses from our sleep His precious children from their fear

of dreams of bodies, space and time, from putrid deathful anguished times,

He raises us from all our woes as gently Homeward forth we go.

Enlighten me this moment, now, my precious Father, take me Home,

For I rely on Grace Your Own, to lift me from my foggy loam,

To raise me from th’ inquietude that I desired and felt and bore

to powerful becoming force that fear can’t resist or ignore.

But can simply and just dissolve, before the reach of its pure light

The darkness, it is there to see no more within Your Holy Sight.

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The Sacred Meeting

I have nothing to do but fall in love.

The passionate wakings of my heart desire to keep, to enfold every human being within its infinite well.

I have only love for you.

In your shock, in your devastation, in your silent unheard longing for a reason, any reason at all.

I am here for you.

I cannot understand a hardened mind but love can penetrate, creeping, and find the vulnerability of a separated soul. Lost and alone and in desperate need of release from its self-evident constriction.

Let me take you inside me. Inside my energetic structure, far beyond bodily or physical concerns. Let me take you into me. Penetrate my deepest longing to communicate with what I have held outside myself.

Let me let you inside.

Where we meet in gentle recognition of Self-hood conflict is forever loosened, the rusted grievance lubricated and released, nothing holds us together in solitude and anguish anymore.

We can meet in gratitude.

We can meet in certainty.

We can meet, we can only meet, in love.

Listen!

Listen!

To the deafening sound of glory’s presence, rising clouds of angels in my morning mediation with my holy Lord.

How warm the glow of waking heart – a sudden wave relieves me, a sudden wave of what is always there, just beyond the the limits of the thinking mind.

Such force, dynamic depths cascading ‘cross the open landscape of a gently, powerfully, expanding mind.

Such stillness in the cool sway of mental machinations, held aloft, suspended, nowhere available to land.

Good God! You are here! You awaken in me and take hold across the open spaces of the Greater Mind – You show me what I am! Beyond this place! Beyond this body of supreme limitation and infinite misery, beyond this twisted mind of I AM RIGHT AND YOU ARE WRONG! Beyond this fearful defence of a self that could never possibly exist in Your Infinite Reality.

Good God! Good God of Holy Glory. You become my dark defences; you enter into my wilfull resistance of Your Love; by my request, you enter into my insurmountable calamity, surpassing my intense desire to croak, to kill, to keep myself apart from what I need, and from what I am. You enter in. You become the chasm of my attempted defeat of You and You show me that it is nothing! That my childish ill humours and tantrums of such ferocity wax lyrical only in my own fantastic dream.

Thank you! Thank you  Light! Thank you Peace! Thank you Joy! For becoming me.. For becoming my deepest Heart and my most glorious infinite Soul. Thank you Life! For filling me as you cannot not, exploding my corruptible boundaries with Your passionate infinite force!

I LOVE YOU LOVE! I love you – Heart of All Beautiful Hearts. I love you Clearest Purest Mind.

I love You Father, I love mySelf in Your perfect creation, in this eternal instant of incorruptible Soul.

I love You now, completely. I love You, now, in certainty. I love You, now, in gentle simplicity.

Thank You for becoming me.

Thank You for becoming me, for burgeoning in me, for investing Your riches within me, for Your erupting volcanic trove within my breast and within my apparent brain.

Come forth within me. Let me acknowledge only Your Self in me, Your creation, Your work, Your goodness and Your love. Let me only grow in faith in You within me. Let all things fall away but what You show Youself to be, and let my faith in That Which You Are be my strength, my necessity, my choice, my desire, and my Home.

Father, let me know You as You know me.

Let me feel You as you feel me.

Let me know mySelf as you created me.

In honest, grateful, wholly pure desire,

Let me learn to…

Listen!

To the deafening sound of glory’s presence, rising clouds of angels in my ongoing mediation with my holy Lord.

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Amen

The universe is open to you. God is offering His Mind to you. He is sharing with you Everything that He Is. His glittering, shimmering frequency is all around you. It is in you – it IS you – it is what You Are with Him and in Him.

“God is with me. He is my Source of life, the life within, the air I breathe, the food by which I am sustained, the water which renews and cleanses me. He is my home, wherein I live and move; the Spirit Which directs my actions, offers me Its Thoughts, and guarantees my safety from all pain. He covers me with kindness and with care, and holds in love the Son He shines upon, who also shines on Him.” (Prayer lesson 222 ‘God is with me, I live and move in Him’)

I experience my Father’s presence as being in perfect communion with all the universe. There is an infinitely expansive heaven of stars twinkling above and around me and this is my mind, this is my Self. My identity, mental emotional and physical, is completely at one with this living, breathing, conscious heavenly Mind.

“My Self, Which rules the universe, is but Your Will in perfect union with my own, which can but offer glad assent to Yours, that it may be extended to Itself.” (Prayer lesson 253 ‘My Self is ruler of the universe’)

This all encompassing communication with Truth, teaches and reaches every corner of the universe. There is nothing that is outside of this experience. Therefore I do rule the universe. Not with the iron fist of control born from the pain of self-containment, but with a gentle all pervasive extension of absolute certainty; certainty of What I Am.

“You are entitled to miracles because of what you are. You will receive miracles because of what God is. And you will offer miracles because you are one with God. Again, how simple is salvation! It is merely a statement of your true Identity. It is this that we will celebrate today.” (Lesson 77 ‘I am entitled to miracles’)

This is A Course in Miracles. The miracle is the acceptance of the Love that is the Source of all miracles as yourSelf, as your Identity.

“Today we will claim the miracles which are your right, since they belong to you. You have been promised full release from the world you made. You have been assured that the Kingdom of God is within you, and can never be lost. We ask no more than what belongs to us in truth. Today, however, we will also make sure that we will not content ourselves with less.” (Lesson 77)

You are the Kingdom of Heaven. You are the Kingdom of God. It is not just within you, it IS you. It cannot be lost because you cannot be lost in the Mind of God. Your Creator knows you perfectly, as He created you.

Be not content with the littleness that is your pathetic earthly self and existence. Be aware of just how little that is, of just how little you are if you choose that as yourself. Be open to the experience that a human being is nothing and knows nothing, and you are opening yourself to an experience of what the Self is that is beyond that littleness, that basks and glides in the magnitude and glory of the Light of Truth.

Heaven is your inheritance and is your one and only possibility of joy. Nothing will satisfy you for long, nothing will last here, except the complete acceptance of your own Identity in God. Your acceptance of yourself as heavenly rather than earthly, as eternal rather than in time, as extending – continuously and simultaneously giving and receiving through this subtle communication with All Things, this experience of Being God, is the only thing you need strive for or focus on or value. If you do decide ‘first (for) the Kingdom of the Lord’ then ‘all things will be added unto you’. (Matthew 6:33) They won’t be given to you in your separate state to use for your own purposes, but will be added to You as the Kingdom of Heaven, which you know as what You Are. All that you have ever wanted or desired or dreamed of being your reality and making you happy will be presented to the Kingdom of Heaven for all who you identify with to share with you. Nothing will be given you alone, but everything will be given you for you to share will all the Sonship Who you know as yourSelf.

“Decide with me, who has decided to abide with you. I will as my Father wills, knowing His Will is constant and at peace forever with itself. You will be content with nothing but His Will. Accept no less, remembering that everything I learned is yours. What my Father loves I love as He does, and I can no more accept it as what it is not, than He can. And no more can you When you have learned to accept what you are, you will make no more gifts to offer to yourself, for you will know you are complete, in need of nothing and unable to accept anything for yourself. But you will gladly give, having received. The host of God needs not seek to find anything.” (Text 15:3:10)

“We thank you Father for the light that shines forever in us. And we honour it, because You share it with us. We are one, united in this light and one with You, at peace with all creation and ourselves.” (Prayer lesson 239 ‘The Glory of my Father is my own’)

Amen to this beautiful and flawless awakening. Amen to my Father’s promise of full release from the world I made, and my clarity and certainty that that has occurred in me.

Doing Nothing

Forgiveness is
Doing nothing

Standing or sitting still
And waiting
For the energetic release that empties you of everything
That empties you of the world
That shows you the world is nothing
That empties you of you
That shows you you are the world
That shows you you are nothing

Forgiveness is
Releasing everything

No specifics exist
For you to hold onto

Forgiveness is holy, non-specific
Whole mind, wholly, nonlocality
Experienced in mind and body
Felt as resurrecting cells

This is a physical resurrection
Your awakening to wholeness
You ARE a body
If not, why do you need the lesson:
“I am not a body, I am free?”
But that you believe that you are bodily,
Physical, limited, contained

Forgiveness is
The release of location to nonlocality
You, literally, disappearing

So does the world really disappear?
It already did
In one holy instant of forgiveness

You discover you are nothing
God is everything
And you are God

Indivisible

Precious union
One Mind speaking
To me or from me?
No distance
Indivisible

A voice within the mind
Addressing itself
But from far beyond
It’s tiny walls of self

And yet itself still
Larger..
Infinite in magnitude
Wholly inclusive
Everything

The recognition
That we address each other
Simultaneously
With the same words

Undifferentiated
Subjective
All within
Infinite in capacity
Unencumbered

Graceful
Gorgeous
Pure

Gentle
Healing
Whole

Indivisible

That is My Mind

Space
Infinite glorious spaciousness
That is my mind

That table is my mind

That war is my mind

Crashing clashing
Conflict of tortured souls
Intricate beauty
Beyond my false projection
That is my mind

Happiness
Joyful expansive reflection of light
That is my mind

Terrible contraction of space time
Ignorance
Death urge
Panic stricken
Desperation
Anguish
That, that is my mind

Contemplative
Gentle
Peace
Renowned enlightened expression
Deep wisdom
Truth

That is my mind

Murderous raging rampage
Sultry sensual temptress
Indignant hostile fire
Cool, cold shouldered turning away

Pain
Stabbing heart break
Sorrow

Vicious attack
Incarceration
Irretrievable blow

That, that pain is my mind
That lashes out, indestructible, unrecognisable angst, hell-fire raging in the soul
Temptation to drown, to crush and to kill
That, that too is my mind

The world is my mind

No escaping totality

Responsibility
Whole and unequivocal
Rests on my solid shoulders of separate self

Requires
Desperately seeks
Desires conversion

Receives totally
In its totality

Perfectly simple
Affording perfect peace

Separate self
Alone in guilt
Whole mind
Releasing all of form

Ministry beginning
Wholeness awakening in the one that says
That, that, that is my mind