Be a Teacher of Life

A Course in Miracles is a course in wholeness of mind. It is an instruction manual for becoming aware that your mind is one with the Mind that created it. Thus it follows that it is a course in totality, in completeness. “The practical application of the Holy Spirit’s purpose is extremely simple, but it is unequivocal. In fact, in order to be simple it must be unequivocal. The simple is merely what is easily understood, and for this it is apparent that it must be clear.” (T:17,1)

The Course works because it only says one thing. It is total in that one thing, and it doesn’t say anything but that. Because of this, it is very simple. The only reason it seems complicated is because you don’t believe the one thing that it says. Nothing you perceive (see, hear, think, say) is true. Unless it is part of an experience that transports you to a different realm of being in which you know yourself completely. This experience is what the Course refers to as forgiveness. It has the capacity to show you beyond the possibility of doubt that this world is not true. The experience is characterised by joy. It is still not actually true.. but it is part of your coming to truth. Forgiveness is the illusion that ends all illusions. If this is your experience, it means your dream of death has become a dream of awakening, and for that you can be grateful! For that you can be grateful indeed!!

The miraculous nature of this teaching comes from the fact that it cannot be compromised if it is to be taught. A mind that is teaching A Course in Miracles does not have the ability to compromise the teaching. The clarity of the concepts is so obvious and so powerful, and if it is watered down with human thinking it becomes nothing, like everything here. It becomes just another blank perception, another invention of nothingness. It becomes dry and boring like everything in form! It becomes dead. The teaching of the concepts, whether verbally or mentally (with your whole being), is a direct transmission of life, an offering of resurrection to your brother in the wholeness of Christ. If it stirs up and regenerates an individual, if it enlightens or enlivens them, if it enlightens or enlivens you as you express yourself, then you are teaching A Course in Miracles. If nothing happens, if there is no spark of recognition, alive-ness, joy, if there is no dislodgment of human identity, if there is no change, then no teaching has occurred. You are a teacher of life or a teacher of death in each moment, and the reaction you receive, in your own self or that of another, will tell you what you are teaching.

“I have stated that the basic concepts referred to in this course are not matters of degree. Certain fundamental concepts cannot be understood in terms of opposites.” (T:3,2) The belief in levels or degrees is a belief in conflict. The understanding that the teaching is total and has no exceptions, is a belief in God.

Do you have some secret problems that you hide from the Holy Spirit’s reach? Are there some elements of your ‘life’ on earth that you believe are untouchable by His gentle hand? (Be honest! Do you want peace? Then you must be honest with yourself! You cannot be helped if you do not need help!) Are there some dark corners of your mind that you prefer to wallow in occasionally and that you believe are beyond the Mind that is everything? “There is no order of difficulty in miracles. One is not ‘harder’, or ‘bigger’ than another. They are all the same. All expressions of love are maximal.” (T:1,1) If there are some areas that are beyond His help, then you are teaching the opposite of this course.

“It is impossible to conceive of light and darkness or everything and nothing as joint possibilities. There are all true or all false. It is essential that you realise your thinking will be erratic until a firm commitment to one or the other is made.” (T:3,2) In order to be whole, your thinking must be whole, and in order for your thinking to be whole you must accept the totality of the teaching. You must recognise that the thoughts you have about things do not have any meaning beyond what you give them, that the forms you see and think about are the projection of your own private thoughts, and the use that you have for them (to justify your reality as a separate form) is irrelevant to reality.

“A firm commitment to darkness or nothingness however, is impossible. No one has ever lived who has not experienced some light and some thing. No one, therefore, is able to deny truth totally, even if he thinks he can.” (T:3,2) Take comfort in this fact! You cannot deny God totally! Even if you think this is within your power, it is not, and has never been. You can not actually be separate or apart from what you are in truth. Your creation is eternal, and is occurring now. You are one with the Mind that Creates, and Creates Now! You ARE in an experience of purity, forgiveness, and release of the world of pain. You DO value the formless, the perfect, the real, beyond what you see as before you and having reality in form. You DO want the truth of yourself, you DO want peace, you DO want God. So give yourself away! Let every thought and interaction be a giving of the Love that expresses itself unconditionally and eternally through you. Let yourself be changed by the spark of enlightenment, enlivenment, that is yours to see, to give, to think about, to extend, expand, to value, to cherish and to love. Let yourself be taught by the Mind that sees everything as one. Let yourself be a teacher of God, a teacher of truth, a teacher of Life.


My One Fundamental Need

Your one fundamental need is to know your own identity. Nothing but this will give you lasting happiness, and nothing but this will bring you real peace. But this knowledge, firmly kept within the shining awareness of your own mind, cherished and adored within your own heart, and extended to all who you meet or think of, will protect you from all thoughts of lack or of pain or of grief. And through your focus on this knowledge, and the extension of it, its perfect certainty will grow in you.

You are the light. There isn’t anything else that you could possibly offer your brother or your self, but this certain knowledge. Your light is the light of this world. It is the releasing factor, it is the power that brings rememberance of your Father’s love to all who seem to inhabit this strange place of seeming differences and separate ideas. What do you want? Do you want to know yourself as you are created, this moment, in the glorious and infinite extension of your Father’s love?

“To extend is a fundamental aspect of God which He gave to His Son. In the creation, God extended Himself to His creations and imbued them with the same loving Will to create. You have not only been fully created, but have also been created perfect. There is no emptiness in you.” (ACIM T:2:1)

It is your function to feel, to acknowledge, and to express the fullness of the experience of God. Despite your own meaningless desires to be separate! Despite any and all thoughts of death that may arise in your mind. It is your JOB to ‘pluck’ them! To notice them, to recognise them as the opposite of truth, of sanity and of love, and to declare your decision to be with your Father in truth. Where else would the work be? Where else but right here, right now, in my own mind?

My Father is completely present with me in my own mind. His creation never stops, and never sleeps. His creation IS what this eternal present IS. And there is no separation between my mind and His. There is no point where the Father stops and the Son begins – creation is continuous. Mind is continuous. There is no separation between us.

“The might of God’s teachers lies in their gentleness, for they have understood their evil thoughts came neither from God’s Son nor his Creator. Thus did they join their thoughts with Him Who is their Source. And so their will, which always was His Own, is free to be itself.” (M4:IV)

This is my fundamental need: to ‘join [my] thoughts with Him Who is [my] Source’. To be as I really am, in truth. To be ‘as God created me’, (L162 eg.) or as God creates me, right here and now, in the glorious extension of illuminate beauty and truth. There is a whole universe of beautiful light, waiting, JUST beyond the edge of the decision to have an experience of separation. And through joining my mind with this Mind of pure light that is all that is, I can be the Will of God!.. Which is my own will.. eternally creating.. eternally changing and changeless in an ever-growing dynamic expansivity that emanates throughout the entire universe!

I am mind. But I am not separate mind. I am not the mind that sees a world outside of itself – that separates itself from everything through the projection of guilt and attack. That is not what I am. And as part of learning what I am, the need is always to look upon what I am not. It is given me to look upon my ‘evil thoughts’, WITH the light of my Father’s Mind, and let Him shine them away; let Him SHOW me, through an ACTUAL EXPERIENCE of heaven – of wholeness – of light, that none of them are true. And that the mind that could conceive of separation, of bodies and of violence and of lack, CANNOT exist, if my Father does. The world that I see is NOT the representation of loving thoughts – but its total opposite. And loving thoughts exist in the mind of God – which is my mind – and I can receive them, and let them take me home to my true identity in Him. How gentle, and beautiful, that is! Thank you, Father, thank you for your reality, and thank you for the complete unreality of what I made to defy and deny you – an experience of separate mind, death, and fear, which I have propagated through the use of judgement, exclusion, rejection, and the projection of guilt and attack.

“A lesson is miracle which God offers to me, in place of thoughts I made that hurt me. What I learn of Him becomes the way I am set free. And so I choose to learn His lessons and forget my own.” (L213)

God releases you through your thoughts. The same mechanism you used to imprison yourself in a world of linear time. The miracle occurs within your mind. The miracle IS accepting God’s answer, God’s thought, in place of the one you made to imprison yourself. Your choice to BE the miracle, to be a miracle-worker, to be the gentleness of a teacher of God, to be set free.. is your decision to listen to and be with the voice of God in your own mind. It’s the decision to let all thought leave you but the one He is giving you, to comfort, heal, and bless. It is the decision to surrender entirely to the depth of the grace of His care and His love for you. It is the decision to RECEIVE His truth, so that you can naturally and with no effort whatsoever GIVE that loving knowledge of light and peace and beauty to everything that seems to exist within your mind.

So what is my one fundamental need? To know myself, as God creates me now; to know myself as wholly loving, wholly inclusive, wholly singular; to know myself as the effortless extension of the love that is the instrument as well as the symphony of creation; that is the limitless power to transform and heal the separate mind and take it home to the certainty and the peace of its own loving emancipation.

The Indescribable Joy of Being Space

Today, I woke up with the acute awareness that I am pure space; that nothing in physical form exists.

“I am not a body, I am free.”

(ACIM L199).

I’m space, I’m light, I’m extension, I’m expansion. And of course, these are all just words.. ideas.. they’re all definitions, but I don’t mean them like that. If you can hear those words on an experiential plane, if you can receive them energetically; soak them up on a cellular level, then you can hear what I’m saying… you can allow in what I’m attempting to communicate.

The wonderful thing about space is that it’s always moving. There’s a gentle pulsing from my core. At the very centre of my being there’s a gentle pulsing outwards. And it occurs to me that if I’m space, if my body is really a quantum experience rather than a physical one (as is clearly true at this frequency of awareness, at this frequency of mind), what that means is that A Course in Miracles is completely true.

It’s true (in my present personal experience) that there is no world: that there’s only peace, and infinite peace, because space goes on forever, and that’s what my mind is. And the desire to fit myself into an identity in space and time begins to leave me, as I give myself this true experience more and more. And as I give it to myself more and more, I become less attached to everything in the world, because I recognise that this place – this state of mind, is my true happiness, my true purpose: “the state of mind in which the only purpose of the world is seen to be forgiveness.” (ACIM T:C30:S5)

So we can touch on the idea of ‘forgiveness’ for a moment, from this purely expansive experiential state: “Forgiveness recognises what you thought your brother did to you has not occurred.” (ACIM pre-L221) Forgiveness also recognises that your brother does not exist as separate from you. We can even go a few steps further than that: forgiveness is the recognition that there is only mind, and mind cannot attack, and therefore does not need to be pardoned: mind can only extend itself to itself. And from this frequency of thought, from this place in mind in which I find myself, this is an experiential and completely present occurrence.

I have to pause every moment; I have to just pause and let the light offer me the words! The words that I’m using are not coming from conceptual mind, they’re not tight. They’re not part of a contraction of mind. I’m not looking for them and trying to grasp them; instead they are given; they are received. They are a part of this experience of expansion; of pure release. They are feeding it, they are nourishing it, they are creating it. This is my time with God. This is what God is. In whatever form it may manifest, and it is not necessary for it to manifest in any form at all, the practice of extension of mind; of true ideas; of this eternally expansive light; of this quantum experience of existence… this is what links me with Creation, with all of Heaven, and thus with the memory of my Father’s Love.

“God is the light in which I see.” (ACIM L44) God is the light in which I see that this world does not exist. God is the light in which I see that I don’t exist. God is the light in which I see the benefits of releasing my entire separate self-identity: the benefits to me, personally, individually. You won’t do this without that. It feels nice! In the end, it gets to be that simple. Why do you give up everything and go home to your Father? Because it feels nice! And because it’s simple. It’s the most simple thing there is. Because it’s the only thing there is.

The intense contraction and complexity (which are the same thing) of conceptual thought (which is the same thing as the world); the intense pain of that contraction; the intense pain of trying to fit yourself into a fractured distortion of yourself; your misguided attempt to be just one character on the stage, when actually you’re the universe in which the stage is set; this, this is the insanity of separate human mind.

What the light is doing on a cellular level, as you receive its ‘enlightenment’, as you relax and feel its joyful expansion; its gentle rippling grace: is undoing you. It’s undoing your self-concept. But really, from where I’m standing in my mind, what I’m experiencing right now is the recognition that there is no undoing. There is no undoing, because what you think was done, was never done. It was a story you were playing to yourself in your own mind, like a tape recorder. The story of Holly Thomas! ‘I wonder how this is going to work out; what’s going to happen with that person; do I have a grievance; is there some conversion I need to do; I wonder when this will happen, am I blocking it’, all the doubts, and uncertainty about myself that are the thoughts of my conceptual mind that I use to stay in time; that I use to stay in an experience of self-identity, which is what time is. All that needs to be undone is my thoughts, my perception of myself, my perception of my identity. All that needs to shift is my awareness, from what is false, to what is true. From the falsity of form to the light and truth of whole consciousness fully present NOW. That is all!

I am so grateful. I am so grateful that my former decision to be in time is being undone. Through this receiving of its opposite. It’s a state of mind. Hell is a state of mind, same as heaven is. There is nothing but state of mind: there is no world outside of you. My current experience of this truth is a fizzing, or a buzzing sensation; it’s like a sparkler sometimes, igniting. Like sparks. Sparks of light. And it’s subtle. It’s gentle. It’s approaching and availing itself to you all the time. It’s offering itself to you! It’s available.. right now. Only, right now.

This ‘spiritual awakening’ (to use a term that’s bandied around so much) is coming to the realisation and recognition in your own mind through your own personal, individual experience, that your mind is all that there is; that the only experience you want is the one of this present moment, this core of light that is your very being, and the glorious and infinite extension of that throughout all universes. That is your purpose, that is your dedication, and that is your teaching, that is what you teach.

And it doesn’t matter what it looks like here. I cannot stress that enough. It just does not matter. If you’re rich, or if you’re poor; if you’re fat or if you’re thin; if you’re intelligent or if you’re stupid; if you do yoga or you don’t do yoga… it makes absolutely NO difference. These concepts about  yourself, these ideas that you hold about a physical identity in space and time, ARE your denial of this experience of pure light. And you do become less attached to them. And your roles, your roles as a mother, or a daughter or an employee or an employer, the roles that you hold.. everything just gets LOOSER. It doesn’t mean you leave your children to go and do this somewhere else. It doesn’t mean that you quit your job or that you close down your business. All it means is that you become determined to remember that you’re free! You become absolutely determined to remember that you’re free. That you are not contained in a dense layer of conceptual thought that you call ‘your body’. You are not contained in a fabric, in a network, in an atomic structure of hydrogen, carbon, oxygen and nitrogen. You are not that thing. You are not that concept. You are this light. You are this core of being-ness! We could just say you are! Fullstop. No explanation or description required or possible.

So this is where we come to in our minds. We come to a place, in time, where we stop, and we begin to think on an atomic level. And these are not really thoughts, they’re not thoughts like you’re used to having, because they’re not conceptual, they’re not about things. That’s what a conceptual thought is, that’s what a concept is. It has to be about  something; it has to be objective. And what I am experiencing, and therefore what I’m teaching (because that’s the same thing) is singular subjective reality. What I am teaching, is that self is whole. It encompasses the entire universe. It is not separate and alone. It is not isolated from anything.

This occurrence that is happening within me is alive, vibrant and pure. And it’s got nothing to do with you, and everything to do with you, because I meet you here, I see you in my mind. I have one precious brother in my mind at this moment, she’s right here with me. The love of your brother, the love of your fellow, is actually all that you are. From this space of perfection and beauty, from this state of mind, you will understand at last that all he could really ever be, is love, along with you.

So to re-cap and to offer you the full and glorious extension of my whole and perfect mind that I share with you, here and now, out of time…!:

I am aware that I am space. I am aware of myself on an atomic level. I am aware of the vibrations of my atomic structure. I can HEAR them. I can feel them. It is delicious. 🙂

This moment I wake up and I know that I am space.

Each time I stop and stand still for a moment and let my mind sink down to a bodily awareness, my consciousness expands outward from however far down I’ve let it go. And at its core is light; the centre of a galaxy. Energy pulses outwards gently from this core.

Now all that is necessary is to let my mind – my tiny, thinking, conceptual self – go:

“Pause and be still a little while, and see how far you rise above the world when you release your mind from chains, and let it seek the level where it finds itself at home. It will be grateful to be free a while. It knows where it belongs. But free its wings, and it will fly in sureness and in joy to join its holy purpose. Let it rest in its Creator, there to be restored to sanity, to freedom and to love.”

(ACIM L128)

And I am home.

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The thing that’s so beautiful is that having this experiences is how you give; this is how you extend truth into the dream of your association and how you actually transform the images that seem so real into pure light. This is how you heal.

“His lilies do not leave their home when they are carried back into the world. Their roots remain. They do not leave their source, but carry its beneficence with them, and turn the world into a garden like the one they came from, and to which they go again with added fragrance. Now are they twice blessed. The messages they brought from Christ have been delivered, and returned to them. And they return them gladly unto Him.”

(ACIM L159)

Thank you for reading… I love you… and WELCOME HOME!!! 🙂